Thursday, December 06, 2007

"Dancer" Anshul

"Hey, but you are a good dancer, why don't you dance anymore?"

Simple question put to me - often by freinds.

Tough answer - for me to give - so most of the times I evade it by using humor.

It seems impossible for me to imagine my self performing in front of people - and shouts of encore.

Today - Anshul - the techy
Yesterday - Anshul - the dancer

And that first performance - all that challenge and me overcoming so many hurdles just to prove myself and winning away the first prize - and that confidence of having defeated some people. Oh.That was fun! Will never forget that night.

I wonder when was the last time I was so passionate about anything.
Waking up to reach college and there thinking of dance steps to fit into the beats by tapping the desk.
Coming back to start the music to see if the beats and dance fall together.
Practicing for hours alone with no one around - in a small tape (that too borrowed from people)...sweating at 2 in the night in December in Varanasi winters - coming back to bed and just dying to be woken up at the last minute for college.

I think - dance was the first think I did with heart and mind together.

And then winning at IIT K !

I miss so much - all the tears and hardwork - all that efforts to better my last performance - all that idea of introducing expression dancing , all that efforts to be a winner everytime - it was fun.

And then nothing remained. I dont know whether I let it die or it just died. May be it was not meant to be taken forward. I managed to leave all that overnight.

But well - everything is not dead - those 3 years of dance proved to me that I can do anything if I actually want - just anything. And I guess that is what matters. So, am I justified in saying that I still am a dancer - because I have managed to put that passion untouched and still alive - somewhere in my self?
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